“I Suffered, I Learned, I Changed”
This I what I’m afraid of..
Found on - LINK
2009
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Honestly, I’ve been spending so much time with this guy. He makes me so happy I have no idea why. Everyday I look forward to see him, or just getting that good morning text makes me a happy camper.
Looking back, we both were young. Not knowing how life actually is. Realizing it has been almost four years and we are finally reconnecting… Is that a sign? Or is it just a time of pleasure? Are we just spending do much time wih each other because we are lonely? I know for a fact my reason is being that I never stopped loving the kid. Honestly he was my first love. My love for him never stopped even when it came down to new relationships. Every night I thought about him. Thinking how I would be of I still had him by my side. Now that I have him again, it scares me. Am I just being led on? Is he really falling for me? Knowing that I may fall down again scares me. Especially if it’s done from the same person a second time.
I just hope that this all works out and that he is being true to his word.
Overall this guy is really something:)
"So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s going to be really hard; we’re gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me… everyday.”
― Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook"
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Honestly, ive been having the best couple of weeks of my life. ive been going out the majority of those days and living it to my fullest. staying out past 12a.m. Mostly with this kid. I am starting to fall for him more and more each day, getting more and more comfortable, showing my sides, but overall im just scared of getting hurt again. What if the things people tell me are really true? I really dont want to get hurt especially again from the same guy. Hopefully everything he tells me, everything he feels about me is true and isnt for show and tell. But overall all, staying as friends right now and being where we are is the best choice, especially for right now. I enjoy and lvoe his company. He such a great talented and smart guy. So it is bes to keep itt hat way:)
Id rather have him as a friend them lose him.
sucks
having my new car be such a burden. it has so much problems on it, thinking back i wish i should of jsut held off getting a new one especially since i got the old one back. now hearing that its actually going to be fixed up i want that one abck:( WAHHH but its okay i guesss
